Hurt

To see somone whom you love is loved by his/her ex hurts.
To bear the harassment of his/her ex's colony also hurts.
To endure the pain of being cheated hurts even more.

This makes me hate human tho. Why would I be the one? Why me? Among of all people out there, why do you choose me? I'm not a toy to replace your ex or anything though you stated that you've moved on. How can I trust you when you state that she doesn't know about her friends' harassment towards me on my insta? Well played. She's been stalking me and you still back up her. *applause*

I used to cut once before long ago tbh. I hope I wouldn't do it for one more time. Wishing that I've enough strength to go through this.

I love you, but don't break my trust on you.

Checking out

It's been a while I didn't update my blog since July I guess? Hi blog! I miss updating you haha. Well, I'm coming back here since I have an assignment regarding posting some posts on blog for my computer science subject. So howdy gaisssssssssss. *wave hand*

Yknow, I've been very very hectic very very busy terribly busy with ADFP assignments and stuffs. I miss hanging out with my fellas *sigh*. And the sad thing is, most of us have different mid sem or sem break, so it's kinda difficult to make a gathering. *cries*

Anyway, life in INTEC so far so good. I have *cough*  already hahahaha well yknow right. He's sarawakian kbye don't wanna talk so much bout it hahaha. 

Final is just around the corner. I hope I can achieve well in ADFP and get admission from uni in US. Pray for me, in sha Allah. 

p.s. Do check out our blog for the assignment >>> ckellivadi.weebly.com

(BE)AUTIF(U)L

I notice that most of teenage girls (including me) nowadays have common problem. Yup, what else if it's not INSECURITY. Why do they feel so? According to my observation and experience (cewah macam dah berpuluh tahun hidup je), they don't feel confident of themselves. I mean, they always compare themselves with others especially with the magazine models. They should know that the company of the magazine photoshop the models so that they look better than in reality. Just look at Kate Perry those hollywood models.

Also, underage kids who are mostly in primary school and lower form. They act like they are mature than their actual age which makes teenage girls become more insecure. They wear high heels, fashionable branded garments and even expert in talking about love. Wow! Kids nowadays are so much mature eh.

For these reasons, youths feel that they are ugly at most of the time. They are shy to talk to people awkward to do something publicly because their spirits are down already. Girls are supposed to know that they are beautiful, no matter what, inside or outside. Inner beauty is more important than outside appearance. Although there are some beautiful young girls on Vine and Twitter, sometimes they use rude words when communicate with people. I don't think we should consider that is beautiful.

Every person is beautiful in their own way. Some people are beautiful because of their flawless face and perfect body shape. Some are normal but their confident makes they look more beautiful than others. Some have courage on trying new fashion and have good manners.

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder"

One may see a person's beauty but not to others. You just have to be yourself no need to be hypocrite. Of all people out there who don't see your beauty, there must be at least a person who notices you.

So, to be beautiful, the key point is just be yourself. You don't just need make up but must be well-mannered as well. You shouldn't compare yourself with others as you might be diffident of yourself. You should always be grateful for what you have so that you live happily with your life. When you're happy for being yourself, yknow you're beautiful.

Final decision - ADFP

Hi. Oh yeah since I don't register myself in UniKL MIAT, so imma enroll on this friday. Yep, will be taking ADFP in INTEC.

What's ADFP anyway? It's American Degree Foundation Programme a.k.a "All Day Fun & Play". Not sure how fun it is, but they say it's easier than IB but almost the same as A-Level but the hardest thing is the GRADING SYSTEM!!!! Smh.

Hm, nvm I believe different course has their own different difficulties. Even foundation in Malaysia also is not really easy yknow. I've been experienced it, so I hope I can make it in INTEC.

Here are some of blogs that practically help me in finding some infos on ADFP. I think they help A LOT in raising one's spirit. If you wanna know further about this course, check out these blogs:

• THIS BLOG
• ANOTHER BLOG

Also, I even asked the guy who wrote about this programme on his blog through email. It really helped!

Here are my freshie annoying questions and his helpful answers.

So, I've finally widen my view on this course. I (finally) know more and get mentally prepared before I start my lessons. Bukan apa. At least I'd know ways how to survive soon. Do I sound really semangat........ hahahahahahahahaha but at least I get to know more! So feel a bit secure rite.

I'd like to thank the guy who wrote the blog. Thank you so much for enlightening me. May Allah bless him for his kindness and sincere. Wish me luck in pursuing success! Dunya and akhirat, in shaa Allah. *showing biceps*

Which one?

Hi, would like to express here on what happened yesterday.

Semalam I was so disappointed nak mati tahap idk what to say about my JPJ test. Macam mana lah boleh fail kat bukit. Haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhh padahal benda senang tau time driving class tak pernah terundur pun. Bila JPJ lah handbrake pulak tersekat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aduh menyesal gila tk tipu haih donno when to take the test after I get enrolled into college.

Talking about college, I haven't decided which college should I enroll. I mean like....... allow me to tell this. Not gonna showing off, seriously. No hate. I'm in dilemma right now.

So, if you're given choices between MARA and JPA offers, which one will you choose?

I've done some research on Google (eceh research. Google cukup) on both JPA and MARA. Both have pros and cons.

JPA: the concept used is bonding at least 6 tahun after grad. Means, gotta kerja under government but gaji tak masyuk ah. But peluang kerja dah ada. Lagipun, engineering banyak scope so mostly banyak nak engineers walaupun dah berlambak kat Malaysia ni engineer.

MARA:  the concept used is loan but may change according to result. Means, if got pointer above 3.5 you gotta pay at least 10% based on each course. Kerja tak terjamin boleh dapat but can work with GLC or private companies! Tu cam bonus gak ah but risiko dia agak tinggi. Kalau tak bayar habis, all your family sampai keturunan cucu beranak pinak tk boleh apply MARA, MRSM and such. So, have to pay jugak no matter what after grad! Tu cons dia.

Ni under MARA. Gonna enroll on 6/7, this sunday.  Aviation. Bunyi macam best kan? Memang best pun acutally but in Malaysia agak susah nak cari kerja UNLESS if you get enrolled in training center like DTS (Dilog Training & Services) and APR (Aero Precision Resources). Russia problem satu je: the language. Kalau grad dari uni, susah sikit nak kerja kat bahagian hanger sebab kena ambil license dulu baru boleh. So, when my fella told me this, I become more confuseeeee which one to choose haiyo.

Why? Because out of the blues I got JPA! Yang aku tak apply pulak tu.... .____. ...... donno how and why. Alhamdulillah rezeki, but there's one thing that makes my spirit down.

MAK OIH!!!!!!

IKR BOLEH HEART ATTACK TENGOK NI :"""""( Tinggi gila marking range dia and sangat kejam haih.

Hence, that's why I'm counfused right now. Either MARA or JPA.................... People around me encourage me to take the JPA because:
1. US
2. US
3. Russia sebab language problem
4. Kerja terjamin
5. & US

Sebab MOST of people yang bagi suggestion to me pandang US/UK rather than other country especially Russia yang dikatakan country based communist. But my cousin said US sounds scarier --' Ok lagi confuse aku.

Pray for me which should I choose. In shaa Allah that decision will be the best.

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Thoughts

Have you ever been compared by anyone like with your siblings, or your cousins, or your neighbours? 

"Adik dia cantik tapi sayangnya tak sepandai kakak dia"

"Dia cantik tapi mak dia lagi cantik"

"Kakak dapat pergi oversea, tapi adik dia takde lah pandai mana"

"Cuba jadi macam abang awak tu. Baik, handsome, pandai."

It hurts, doesn't it? I know because I've been in that situation too. Oh yeah, like people compare you and your sister. I donno why. Jealous ke apa ke dengki ke? My sister sampai dah down tau.

Yknow what, if I knew you and met you one day, I'd like to give a slap on your face. Duhh, I don't even know you. Dah lah budak sekolah lagi. MRSM tak MRSM lah. I've finished school already and so what? Kesah pulak aku.

Please don't be judgemental. Different people have different talent and ability. Takkan semua adik beradik pastu semua nak pandai, semua nak cantik. Allah dah tetapkan yang terbaik untuk setiap hamba-Nya. If a person is perfect dari segi akademik, beauty, talent, and manners, maybe dia tak perfect dari segi kesihatan. Who knows? Tu nikmat masing masing. 

Sometimes, Allah gives everything to a particular person. Wealth, health, beauty, intelligence. Everything. Maybe in that way the person can be more tawakkal and grateful. or in either way, he or she could be more greedy and arrogant. Always pray the best for yourself and the rest. Doakan dapat dimurahkan rezeki dan dipermudahkan urusan hidup dunia akhirat, in shaa Allah, He gives the best for you.

Oh and lagi satu. The way you treat people also can be detected either you hate or adore them. They don't mention it directly but ykow how to detect it, like c'mon.. Get it? I mean the way they stare at you, and they see all your faults rather than your good deeds.

C'mon, don't plant hatred in your heart because soon, you might experience the same thing (karma falls), or maybe rasa tak tenang all the time. If you dislike someone, just keep it to yourself and don't spread to the others about her/his bad things/faults. Just pray that she or he will change to be better ok? That would be easy.

First round

Hello. It's been a month I'm unproductively being at home. Takde ah unproductive sgt, but it feels lifeless lah, dgn I'm broke, how to keluar then haiyo. The last time I went out with my maksu, habis duit beli skirts (for preparation to get into uni hahahaha) and went out with Nasrin pun dah kopak jugak duit. I'm such a big spender, sampai diri pun dah sengkek -.-

Anyway, counting the days, it's about 17 days more before I enroll in uni. Can't wait for it! So, since I have free time now, I should enjoy it first! By? Perhaps reading novel, oh yeah nak habis kan novel ni. Fifty Shades hahahaha. and so, all I did was watching online movie, watching vines, Tumblr-ing, Instagram-ing and Tweet-ing, tweeting, tweeting, eat, sleep and REPEAT. So unproductive rite? I know. But I did handle some house chores and baking ok don't be surprised lol.

Talking about FIFA, I watch some matches too. The most heart-breaking news is.......

SPAIN LOSE! Like seriously? SERIOUSLY?! It's just first round and you're out of the group stage already. Sobs. So disappointing. What a hard luck...... Yeah, Nederlands payback revenge kot tsk tsk. Sorry World Cup, since that, I gotta berpaling tadah support Germany and Nederlands then...... but........ semua aku sokong kalah. Except for Germany. Like, England lose to Italy, Spain lose to Australia and Nederlands. So sad. Ha. Ha. -.- I hope England this time wins against Uruguay kalau tak, hm memang bawak suwey. 

Ha ha ha ni siot -.- :(

So, what can be conclude here is what's on top isn't always on top because life is like a circle. Just take a look in this World Cup season.

Second sem UPM

Second sem started after a week of sem break. Starting of sem was awesome. Our first day class was canceled so we went to Mines to play bowling! Haha.

Surprisingly, it was the second last day of Mien being in UPM. My best buddy throughout my sem here and since I was in SMSS. I'm gonna lose her. She got Petronas oversea scholarship to US *cries* But nvm, I know I can handle myself and survive on my own here without her.

Why? Because when you're living in college, all that matter is you yourself and not anyone else. Like if you get hungry during dinner, but your fella isn't your roommate and imagine if s/he lived at different hostel and s/he didn't want to eat dinner, so you gotta go to cafe all by yourself. So, I let her go instead (ceh dah macam moving on after break up je hahahahahahaha)

Ok, so Mien's gone. Then, I gotta live independently.

During last sem, we got 5 classes. I was in Kuliah 3. This sem, I am in Kuliah 2. We got 3 classes for second sem altogether. Kuliah 1 stays together with September intake students. Kuliah 2 + Kuliah 3 becomes Kuliah 2. and Kuliah 4 + Kuliah 5 becomes Kuliah 3. Old classmates and new ones. But I've known them since last sem so it isn't a big deal.

Our subjects for this sem are:

-Organic Chemistry (3rd sem subject)
-Statistic (3rd sem subject)
-Physics - Heat, light and ((not sure apa)) (2nd sem subject)
-Physics - Electric, electronic and electromagnetic (3rd sem subject)
-Biology (2nd sem subject)
-Biology - Genetic (3rd sem subject)
-Agriculture - Food (2nd sem subject)
-Agriculture - Entrepreneur (3rd sem subject)

8 subjects = 24 hours credit WTH -,- and total lab reports that we gotta do is 5. FIVE BABE FIVE! Banyak tu. On fourth week pulak, semua lab ada and gotta send all the lab reports on that week jugak! Feh, Bio paling seksa -,- Abang Zul our lab demonstrator suka buat kitorang rushing dari last sem lagi :"( -.- Dah lah time tu test 1 dah start. Memang tk penat langsung -,-

However, since I got MARA, I only took Chem test and Entrepreneur test. Chem so far ok jugak..... kot..... I got ok lah and Entrepreneur test, Alhamdulillah I did well. Got marks already but the rest papers, I didn't sit for it. Yeah..... Because on Thurday, 22nd May would be my last day in UPM.

War Games during last sem. Sedihnya :""""""""""""""""""""""""""""(

I was sad for leaving my friends here plus happy for the offer. I donno. Couldn't describe my feelings. So much feels that I couldn't tell how was it. *sigh*

ABORT! ABORT! ATHIRAH'S MISSING!!!!!!!!! xD

It was supposed to be "Together we stand, divided we'll fall". Not "STARD" WHAT THE HECK --'

After I went out, Athirah also quit. And so, our Lecthree becomes lesser.... and lesser. From 27 of us since last sem, now only got 9 of us stay there excluding me *sigh* Because most of us took scholarship offer and some of Trackers get into Streamers and move to other uni because they want to take Medic course :( I heard that Trackers sekarang tinggal 60++ je people :( So sad, we become lesser haih.

Prof Mahiran (Pengarah Pusat Asasi) expects the best from us (I mean Trackers) anyway. So you guys gotta score better for this sem tau!!!!!! Atiqah, Mima, Ica, As, Sya, Izzati Nadzri, Izzati Suhail, Muih & Pedot, PLEASE BANGGA KAN LECTHREE TAU!!!! And semua Trackers yg aku kenal yang still stay, please score tau!!!!!!!! Sayang korang :'(

To STREAMERS, WELCOME TO UPM ESPECIALLY SYAA, NAZMI & MIJAH!!!!!! SCORE THE BEST FOR YOUR RESULT AND GET ABOVE 3.75 BECAUSE I KNOW YOU GUYS CAN!!!!!!


So, my life in UPM was over since 22nd May. *sigh* I miss UPM so much that I could cry a river, eh no. A sea :'""(

I thank Allah for giving the chance to meet you guys in my life. Thank you for being with me through thick and thins. I pray the best for you guys in pursuing happiness and achieving success in life. In shaa Allah, we'll meet again. Pray for me as well.

My earlier plan was if I continued in UPM, I'd graduate at age 22, get first class honoured in Aerospace engineering and continued Ph.D. But then again, I wasn't fated to do so hm.

So attention to all '97 kids, SCORE THE BEST FOR YOUR TRIAL SPM. If you're in science stream and planning not to take medic, you can apply UPM fast track lane. I'm sure it's the best choice. You can plan as what I've planned and if you don't mind, why not following my earlier dream LOL xD JK.

If you don't have chance to get into fast track, try to APPLY STREAMER AND CHOOSE UPM AS YOUR CHOICE WHEN APPLYING UPU. You'll be doing it after you get your SPM result. Choose UPM if you don't plan to further in Law, Dentistry and Pharmacy. Trackers ke, Streamers ke, September intake ke, WE'RE ALL ASPERIANS. BE PROUD.

Anyway, I didn't regret for being enrolled in UPM. It was the best experience for the rest of my life. I mean like you get into college earlier than your fellas, and you get to be senior to them. Isn't that legit? I'm sure it is.

The Fault In Our Stars

ARE YOU GUYS READY FOR THIS? HAVE YOU READ THE NOVEL YET? WELL IF YOU DON'T READ YET, GRAB THE BOOK NOW BEFORE YOU WATCH IT. WHY? BECAUSE YOU'LL KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN BOTH AND YOU COULD FEEL THE STORY AND UNDERSTAND MORE IN BOTH VERSIONS.

Oh, 6 June? Nah that's for UK. In Malaysia, I'm not sure when it'll release either on 17th or 31st.

Nevertheless, I've watched it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahahahaahahahahahaha SO HEPI THAT I COULD CRY A RIVER!!!! *faint* Where did I watch? Haha on megashare *evil laugh* But it's not good quality as it's the recorded one but I WOULD LIKE TO THANK THE PERSON BECAUSE I CAN WATCH IT FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE. but I suggest you guys, better watch in theater. More quality and you'll feel the story even deeper. 

Well, all you need before you watch this movie, DEFINITELY A......

YEP. A BOX OF TISSUE. and the book as well in case if you wanna check the difference. But I did some comparisons hahah! Oh yeah anyway,

Because you might feel irritated and would not be surprised as you would know which plot was the most touchable. So sorry, I need to express it here. So much feelings after the watch and I can't even tweet what I want as people will mad at me because I might be a spoiler :'( Sorry, bcoz I can't handle it :'( Excuse me I need to express what I feel here :( But not in Twitter *sigh* or with any of my fellas because they want it to be surprised and watch it after the release date. I might watch in theater as well. I guess so. Depends on my free time. Kenapa lah in Malaysia lambat sangat release haih -,-

Anyway, I would like to list some differences between both versions (as I've watched it already hihihihi) These are the plots which I remember that have differences.

• Poems

In novel, Hazel and Augustus liked to recite poems to each other. Like in the plane where they were heading to Amsterdam & at the restaurant where they had dinner sponsored by Lidewij. In movie, there're no reciting poems at all.

• Augustus ex-girlfriend

In novel, they mentioned about Caroline like how Gus and Caroline met, their first kiss and how she ended up her life because of cancer.( I guess it's cancer, I can't remember). In movie, there's NO ABOUT CAROLINE at all.

• Augustus was dying

In novel, he did something wrong to G-tube after Hazel went to heis house, when he was pissed the bed. Then after Hazel reached the place and called the emergency, brought him to the hospital, she recited the poem called "The Red Wheelbarrow" to him. In movie, after the plot where Isaac, Hazel and Gus threw eggs to Monica's car, Augus called Hazel to tell that he was in the car, dying for help. After that, ok this one was same as the novel but there was no reciting poem plot. and basically, chapter 15, 16 & 17 were not in the movie.

• Hazel argued with her mum

In novel, she argued with her mum about not eating dinner and how sad she was about Augustus' death. In movie, she didn't eat her dinner because she wanted to go to Augustus pre-funeral. There's a bit difference. Can refer to page 296.

• Before funeral

In novel, after the plot where she said she called a ten a nine because to save her ten, she called Gus & checked his wall page & replied to people's comment about the death. In movie, she didn't open her laptop yet just straight away went to the funeral

• The funeral

In novel, Isaac read his eulogy like what he did during the pre-funeral but this time, he did more serious. In movie, Isaac did not present to read his eulogy.

• Peter Van Houtten

At Amsterdam in the movie, Peter played his role well as in the novel. In novel, after Peter said bad things about cancer and how childish Hazel was, Lidewij said "I RESIGN" but in movie, Lidewij didn't say so and Hazel Grace cursed before she went out of Peter's house hahahaha.

At funeral, in movie, the first sentence he said was "what a shame on you, kid". But in novel, he said "What a load of horse crap, eh, kid?" But in both versions, he did say "We gotta fake pray now"

After that, he approached Hazel who was in the car alone. He gave a letter to her but she crumpled it and shouted to him to get out of her car. In novel, Hazel was in the car with her mom. Peter didn't give the letter and she just asked him (scolded I think) to him to get out of the car but in a nice way haha.

• Hazel got a letter

In novel, she gotta find out what was Gus' message to her. She found out from Isaac and had to contact with Lidewij and stuff. You can refer to novel. In movie, she found out from Isaac and surprisingly, the letter that she crumpled was AUGUSTUS' LETTER TO HER. So, after all, Peter sent the letter already to her.

Why did I tell you this? Because these plots were the saddest I guessed. Especially when Hazel found out that Gus died already. I cried, I swear.

Although there're some differences between both versions, I really loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee this story. Thank you Shailene Woodley and Ansel Elgort for making this story alive :')

Here are some quotes that I love.

This story is beautiful :""""""""") I could watch it for hundreds time without getting bored :""""")

BUY ME THIS!!!!!!!

So how's the result?

Well, so far I just had 4 interviews. All those interviews eventually raise my confidence. Alhamdulillah, I got MARA scholarship. My own choice. Aviation. MARA actually doesn't provide scholarship but they provide pinjaman boleh ubah.

Yup, the preparation will be at UniKL Miat. Harhar pakai uniform ler aku nanti. No. No. Just called MIAT and they said....... "BAJU BEBAS" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAY!!!!!!!!

Russia pun russia lah. Moscow lagi pun :) Moscow's nice what.

In Shaa Allah, I'll do my best. Pray for me as well :')

Interview Felda scholarship

Felda scholarship. This one is special for Felda's generation, not the public one like FGV. Yup, I'm Felda's third generation. My granddad is living in Felda in Kedah.

OK, this interview is formal. No group interview. Seriously, just individual. All depends on yourself. This one was held at Menara Felda at Ampang on 29 April (I think)

First session was test. Test dia ala ala MARA punya soalan tu. Ada. Then last question. Essay. Haaa sudah essay pulak dah. the title was "Reasons why do I need to be this scholarship holder" Ok apa lagi. Bantai jelah. Kahkah.

Then next session, individual interview. The panels asked bout my education, my interest, why I choose engineering and stuffs. The interview was about 12 min. Well that's all.

Interview MARA

Haaaa interview MARA was the best interview I've ever attended! And no need to postpone exam hihi. Well, our dress code was informal. We gotta wear t'shirt, tack bottom and sport shoes.

Peliknya dress code. Ikr? I did some exercises and jog and bought new sport shoes for this interview coz there were some rumours said that....

"Aku dengar cerita interview MARA tahun ni ada marathon"

"Interview MARA ada yg PLKN training tu, bumping ke apa tah nama dia yang lari patah balik within masa yg diberi"

Frankly, I was like OMG I gotta train myself and be fit and be confident for this interview!!!!!!!!!

Then, turned out, mana ada pun semua tu! Pfffttt. Penat tau training haha. My interview was held at UniKL MFI, Bangi. Most of my batchmates got at KMB and KMS tsk tsk I was the only one yg sesat kat sini T.T

Well, bangun pagi dah lambat jangan cakap lerrrr memang sampai sana dah pukul 8.10 a.m kahkah. But our session was on 11 a.m. Yeah lambat lagi. If I know earlier, I wouldn't have to be so rushed during morning -.- Then, got new fellas. My group, there were 3 of us chose the same code LN0801 which was at Russia. Why Russia? Because it's the only code program that has aviation course. Well.

First room, we were given a task on role play. We gotta act and make the panels laugh and we gotta use and innovate all the materials provided to be used in our role play. We acted spontaneously hahahaha it was fun I swear. And you gotta speak in english. If you could cooperate with each other, you would enjoy the task given. The objective of this task was to test you if you could cooperate with your team members or not :)

After that, the panels asked us about religion stuffs. Alhamdulillah, we could answered those questions.

Then, the next room, we were given a case study. Aduh case study lagi. But this one was easier. It was about "Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad's contribution to country" We discussed very very very very well and tak hambar at all! Best gila! After that, we were a given a paper of every team members. We gotta give mark to ourselves and other members. I just gave all of us 4/5 hahaha. Quite fair rite.

Then habis :) Sekejap sangat. Around 12.30 p.m dah habis. Then, we exchanged numbers and balik.

Interview JPA Engineering Germany/France/Japan Korea

On 15 April, Tuesday, I went to JPA interview. Gotta postpone Physics exam on the evening. Well, what to do. The interview was held at UNITEN.

It wasn't interview actually. It was SAC (Student Assessment Centre). The total time was 3 hours. Every 1 hour we had different session at different room. My group consisted of 8 members.

First room, we had case study. But this case study was different from Petronas. This one, we didn't need preparation time to list out our points. We had to speak spontaneously on whatever crossed in minds. The tittle given was IMMIGRANTS. So, we just discussed with each other and summarized all the points and made conclusion while the panels silently judged us.

Then, the next room, we had PERMAINAN MINDA. This game was quite interesting. We were divided into two smaller groups, and we had to discuss and find a conclusion to answer the questions given. The questions were:

1. There was a paper given a list of numbers. We had to conclude how did the numbers become in that sequence.

2. Some numbers, equal sign, multiple and plus sign were given and we had to rearrange in algebraic expression to get the total number of 10 (or 20 I'm not sure, I can't remember)

3. A situation where:

"Seorang lelaki memandu dengan laju di simpang gaung kemudian terlanggar pembahagi jalan lalu terjatuh ke dalam tasik. Tangan kanan nya terseliuh dan dia tidak dapat menyelamatkan diri. Dia hanya mempunyai masa selama sejam. blablabla (I don't remember) 2 jam kemudian pasukan penyelamat datang dan terkejut bahawa dia masih hidup. Berikan alasan bagaimana dia boleh terselamat dalam keadaan sebegitu"

After that, the panels asked us one by one about ourselves and why we chose engineering and the country provided. I was speechless when she asked why I chose Germany and I didn't have exact answer.......... Because I want aeronautical engineering actually but oh well, just trying my luck here. Hentam kromo kahkah.

Then, the last room, we had DEBAT!!!!!!!!! OMG I've never participate in debate or debat then this assessment got debat omg. The title was "NEGARA MAJU TIDAK SEPATUTNYA MEMPUNYAI PENDUDUK BERLEBIHAN" I think.  I was on the opposition side. Aduh. Assessment ni memang aku hentam kromo jela. I honestly didn't speak much but at least I tried. Ok ah tu. Nasib budak MCKK tu helped me lots in giving out my points. And there was a Malay guy from VI, he spoke in english well but in malay, he didn't sound like one. I repeat. He's a MALAY GUY. Macam pelat and he spoke in english well during the debat. Ok..... and I was like...... ok...... up to you........

Pape pun, redha.

توكلت على الله

Interview scholarship Petronas 2014

I went to Petronas Youngstars Day 2014 on 14 April, Monday at Bangunan UTM Space, Jalan Tun Razak. Near Ampang gak ah. It was my first time attending an interview. I was nervous as a mouse was scared of a cat. I did some research on the internet for preparation a night before the iv. And I gotta postpone my BIO exam. Why? Interview time aku tengah final exam memang ler kena postpone. My lecturer couldn't be contacted so Mien's lecturer said we could postpone it on Friday. Phew.

Ok so, some of my fellas got the same place and same day as me. Mien, Muhaimin, Harraz, Afiff and Cijan but Harraz got the interview session during morning. Our first session (except for Harraz) was test session. 

Oh yeah I got number 2 group Blue.

The first test was about Physics, Chemistry, Add Math. Yeah it combined those subjects as one. It were not so easy, just average I guess. I answered well coz most of the questions were all bout the SPM syllabus. Don't worry. It was all objective questions. Then, the second test was Critical Thinking Skill / IQ test something. And the time provided was 30 min!!!!!! Like seriously!!!! 40 questions and you gotta answered within the period. Haaa! Ni memang macam tuuuttttt. There were diagrams sequence and you gotta figure out the next diagram, what would it be. Just liddis. But I guess I answered it well.

Something like this.

Then, we had lunch and break. and interview session started around 2 p.m. Each interview group consisted of 5 members. I got candidate C in my group. The case study given was about ADVERTISEMENT. I couldn't remember well my title but it had something to do with advertisement affects people and how should government prevent advertisement from affecting people's mind and life. Something liddis.

First, they gave 30 min to prepare whatever points you gotta present for individual presentation and group discussion. The time given for individual interview was 10 min and for group discussion was 20 min. Like seriously, lama gila kot masa dia bagi. MUET pun tk selama macam ni .___. I was afraid if I could not present well but tawakal jelah.

Then, after my group members had done their individual session, it was my turn. Pergh. The panels attacked me by questioning my points and and gave situation related to my given points. I was speechless, I couldn't answer him back. Damnit, I know he was just testing me if I had confidence in myself or not.

After the individual session done, we had group discussion. It was seriously just like MUET but this one was quite hambar...... and I didn't speak so much so........ nvm. I let the two chindians spoke and I just agreed to everything they said. Then, habis.

Long story short, I did bad. And I didn't get the Petronas scholarship either. According to my cousin, I got 2.5 out of 3.0. To get the oversea scholar, you must get 3.0 full mark and to get into UTP, you must get at least 2.5 but since I didn't apply for local, I didn't get Petronas. Nvm, maybe not my fortune.

So, next time if you have interview session. Be confident! Speak up whatever in your mind. Don't let your mouth locked like there's a gold in your mouth. Yeah, reminder to myself as well. 

Tracker UPM

I registered at UPM as Tracker on 28/12/13.

Wait, wait. Don't tell me you don't know this thing. You don't know what's Tracker, do you? Have you ever heard about UPM? About their foundation programme? No? Ok lemme explain.

UPM has foundation programme (Asasi Sains Pertanian a.k.a ASPer) which consists of 3 lines:

• Fast track - offers 8 months (2 sem) of foundation and you can save 1 year early to graduate! You can apply for fast track based on your trial SPM result. But the bad thing is you gotta catch up all the lessons faster because it's FAST TRACK manh! If you're in fast track, you are TRACKER. (psssssttt, trackers are way cooler than streamers coz you are senior to your friends who are same age with you!)

• Stream - offers 1 year (3 sem) studies. This one is ordinary foundation and based on your SPM result. The minimum grade to get in ASPer is B. So if you get C+ in one of subjects, can't help it :( If you're in stream, you are STREAMER.

• September intake - offers 1 year (3 sem) studies same as streamers but you learn together with trackers because you're late for 3 months. But don't worry, you can still catch up things and can take degree on same time with streamers. Usually those who get into September intake are those who can't fly to oversea due to several problems so they'll be transferred to September intake programme.

Anyway, life in UPM is so cool. You can wear anything you want to class. Jeans, skirt, blouse whatsoever coz no body cares about your appearance. Even the lecturer will not scold you as long as you wear shoes. It's not like in Matric. Rules are on your own! That's why I like being in UPM. 

The lecturers are also nice. Except for our Calculus lecturer........ He isn't nice when talking to us but he's nice when marking our paper. The lecturers are so lovable, they can be friends to be chat with at the same time! Dr Zaizi, Dr Md Jelas, two of these are my fav Chemistry lecturers. Dr Zaizi is so loving grandpa :3 Kuciku :3 Sho cute ngawhh :3 

Chemis lab hahaha

Anyway, for first sem, we learn:

-Biology

-Physics

-Inorganic Chemistry

-Physical Chemistry (2nd sem subject)

-Algebra

-Calculus (2nd sem subject)
-SSK (3rd sem subject)((same as ICT. I donno what SSK stands for haha))

-anddddddddd AGRICULTURE!

Agriculture? But why? Well, this is the reason why ASPer is special. We learn agri dude, don't be surprised haha. We even go to farm, nursery, fish hatchery, cow farm and many more during amali pertanian. Best sangat! You won't get those experiences if you're in other asasi.

At fish hatchery.

I'm in Lecture group 3. There're 5 classes for Trackers. We call ourselves as "Sleepy Heads" coz every time when lecture class, there must be one of us who falls asleep. Haha. Lecthree is another nickname for our group. 

Lecthree, please stay together. 

Being as tracker, they say we don't have social life. Nope, I guess we prove to them that they're wrong. Ok maybe coz of the timetable is so pack coz everyday our class starts at 8. But if we have free time, or the class is canceled, we'll go to Mines and have fun what. Haha. Flat ikan also is another nearest place to be lepak-ed at. Mamak restaurant at Flat ikan. Ok what. 

At "Jom Masuk U" fair. A few days before final exam. Sempat lagi! xD

Haa talking bout exam, test 1 and 2 usually held at night. During day we have lecture and night after that, around 8 p.m. we'll have test. It was average and some questions are easy. Ok joking. It was freaking damn hard!!!!!!!!!!! But slalunya memang redha jawabnya. Final exam lagi macam............. Hm

Another best activity held by ASPer is WAR GAME!!!!!!!!!!! This is a camp where you will know all of your batchmates and the activities provided are all water based! Best sangat I swear ❤ War Game was held at Jasin, Melaka. Our commander's name is Pak Let. And kat sana tak rushing and the facilities were okay. We went kayaking, night walk, Explorace Danau, water rafting and such. Masa Explorace Danau time kat lumpur I was cramp harhar tak guna. Nasib ada hero hero malaya datang membantu hahahaha. The real War Game has to be canceled coz the mud is dry. Phew, seb baik!

At War Game 

So much fun! So much memories. Love you guys. Trackers ❤❤❤

p.s. if you're tracker, you can't further your studies in medic but if you're streamer and September intake, you can take anything course you want for your degree!

NOTE THAT ASPER IS NOT ONLY FOR BEING FARMER OR FISHERMAN OK YOU CAN TAKE ANY COURSE YOU WANT. I REPEAT, ANY COURSE. 

SPM

Oh no, not dentist anymore. I change my interest after I know I'm not into BIOLOGY haha.

SPM? Trial SPM is more difficult compared to REAL SPM I SWEAR. Trial SBP pergh susah nak mati apatah lagi TRIAL MARA. Lagi membunuh jiwa dan raga -.-

Talking about SPM, our teachers really expect the best from us. They hope that we can break the record for getting more than 1 person getting straight A+ and keseluruhan cgpa ke apa entah kurang dari 1.0. So, because of that, teachers pulun habis basuh kitorang batch RESILIENT. Resi, be strong.

Perkampungan ilmu, gotta sacrifice our holidays, programme Perfect Score and X-A Plus at ASiS, SSP and TiKL. Oh oh! and at Ulu Yam with SEMASHUR. Haaa ni paling """"""best"""""" Best, best. Just the dorm, yg tak best. Yknow kat camp kan. Memang ler tk best  facilities dia. But activities, were okay. Not so rushing sangat. These activities were held roughly three months before SPM.

At Ulu Yam for Programme Perfect score and X-A Plus with SEMASHUR 

Then, SPM lagi ah kena pulun habis especially time hari yang takde exam. Penat sangat. I even skipped few classes because tak tahan kepenatan dia cam faster school, I wanna end up my school life earlier please ah. Time Bio, lagi kena pulun habis. Class supposed to end at 10 pm but teacher lengthen the extra class till 12.30 am pergh ok takpe. Sacrifice for SPM. Takpe.

Last Bio class :)

Bio paper was on the last day. After I got out from the exam hall, I hugged my Bio teacher and said

"Sorry teacher, I did bad tadi."  I cried

She comforted by hugging me and said "It's okay. As long as awak dah buat yang terbaik dan datang kelas saya, in shaa Allah semua nya baik saje" and zaaapp, I was touched :(

But anyway, it was the last day of SPM which meant my LAST DAY OF SCHOOL LIFE! WEEEEEHOOOOO! SCHOOL LIFE IS OVER!!!!!! I was damn excited!!!! 

Those were good times. Bye school :) I'll miss my high school life :(